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Tuesday, May 20, 2014

5th Easter 2011, Wings of Roses

5th Easter John 16, 1-33
He Qi

“All these words I have spoken to you so that you will not be offended because you discover what destiny falls to you through being connected with me. For they will exclude you from their communities, and the hour will come when those who rob you of your earthly existence and kill you will think they are offering service to the progress of the world. They will do so because they cannot raise their knowing to knowledge of the Father, nor to knowledge of my being and working. All these words I have spoken to you so that when the time comes you will remember that I said them to you. I did not speak to you in this way in the beginning because I was with you. But now I am going away to him who sent me; yet, none of you has yet the strength and courage to ask me about the realm into which I now enter. Your hearts are full of grief and therefore closed to the things I have said to you.

Nevertheless I tell you the truth: it is for your salvation and healing that I go away, for if I did not go away, the Comforter, who will stand by you in all trials, the Spirit upon whom you can call for assistance at any moment, would not come to you. But because I go, I will be able to send him to you. When he comes, he will bring to the world a consciousness of how the nature of the sickness of sin works, of how people can be reconnected with the divine world in which there is no sin, and of how the decision about human error can be brought about. Sin is human beings not really being able to trust in my being and in that which works out of my being within them. The balancing of sin holds sway in my going to the Father and in not remaining limited to appearing outwardly. Judgment works in the decision that has already been made about the prince of outer world.

I have much more to say to you, more than you can now bear. But only when the Spirit comes, through whom the Truth can reveal itself to the world, will he lead you to the Truth that Embraces All. For he will not speak only out of himself, but he will speak what he hears in the realm of the Spirit, as the speaking of the eternal reality, and he will tell you what is yet to come. Thus will he reveal me among men, for out of what he takes from my being he will proclaim to you. In the realm in which my Father works, there I also live. That is why I can say, ‘He will take from my being and proclaim to you’.

In a little while you will see me no more, and then after a little while you will see me.”

Some of his disciples said to one another, “What does he mean by saying, ‘In a little while you will see me no more’, and then, ‘after a little while you will see me’, and ‘because I am going to the Father’? They kept asking, “What does he mean by ‘a little while’? We do not understand what he is saying.”

Jesus knew that they wanted to ask him about this, so he said to them, “You are wondering what I meant when I said, ‘In a little while you will see me no more, and then after a little while you will see me.’  Amen, amen, the truth I say to you, you will weep and deeply mourn, and the world will rejoice in this. You will be filled with sorrow, but this your sorrow will be turned into unceasing joy. A woman giving birth must bear pain, for her difficult hour has come. But when the child is born, she no longer considers the anguish because of her joy that a child has been born into the world.

So it is with you. Now is your time of grief. But this your grief will become the power of Spirit-Birth, for I will see you again and your heart will rejoice, and no one will take your joy from you. On that day, you will be so deeply united with me that you will no longer need to ask me anything.

Amen, amen, I tell you the truth; from now on what you ask of the Father in my name, He will give to you. Until now, you have not been able to ask anything in my name. Ask and you shall receive, and your joy will be complete.

Pray from the heart, and it will be given to your heart so that your joy may be fulfilled.

All this I have given to your souls in imagery. But the hour is coming when I will no longer speak to you in pictures, but will tell you openly and unveiled about my Father, so that you can grasp it in full, knowing consciousness. So will I proclaim to you the being of the Father. On that day, you will ask out of my power and in my name. And no longer will I ask the Father on your behalf. For the Father himself will love you because you have loved me, and have known in your hearts that I have come forth from the Father. I have come forth from the Father and I have come into this world.
Christ's Descent, Unknown

I leave the sense world again and return to the world of the Father, of which you say that it is the world of death.”

Then Jesus’ disciples said, “Now you are speaking in clear thought and without imagery. Now we know that all things are revealed to you and that you do not even need to have anyone ask you questions. This makes us believe that you came from God.”

Jesus answered, “Do you now feel my power in your heart? Behold, the time is coming, and has already come, when you will be scattered, each to his own loneliness. You will then also leave me alone. But I am not alone, for the Father is eternally united with me.

All this I have spoken to you so that in me you may find peace. In this world, you will have great fear and hardship. But take courage. I have overcome the world.”

5th Easter
May 22, 2011
John 16: 1-33

Sodom and Gomorrah, Nuremburg
There is an Old Testament story in which God wants to lead His people to a new setting. He sent two angels to Abraham’s nephew Lot to gather the people together and lead them out of the doomed city. The angels warned them not to stop or look back during this transition. But Lot’s wife could not resist turning her attention backward. Perhaps she was  fascinated with horror over the city’s destruction. Or perhaps she felt grief over what had to be left behind. But not heeding the angel’s words, to keep her focus on moving forward, cost her dearly. In the biblical imagery, she was transformed into a pillar of salt, her soul trapped in trying to preserve a worn-out past.

This is the time of the year when Christ says to us: ‘But now I am going away to Him who sent me; yet none of you has yet the courage and strength to ask me about the realm into which I now enter. Your hearts are full of grief and therefore closed to the things I have said to you.’

He said this at His last supper with His friends, after He has told them about his own destiny walk. His disciples were in shock and grief—instead of becoming the Israelite king, He was walking toward His death. He has compassion for their sorrow; and yet He wants to convey to them that if He succeeds, something tremendous will be accomplished. And they will be comforted.

Clinging to what is gone closes our hearts to the present, and robs us of our future. Our souls need the courage and strength to investigate the realm into which He, and we, are entering. On the other side of dismay and death lies something higher and deeper. As the poet says:

…if you have endured a great despair,
then you did it alone,
getting a transfusion from the fire,
…Next, my kinsman, you powdered your sorrow,
you gave it a back rub
and then you covered it with a blanket
and after it had slept a while
it woke to the wings of the roses
and was transformed.[1]





[1] Anne Sexton, in The Awful Rowing Toward God




Tuesday, September 24, 2013

9th August Trinity 2011, Wholesomeness

9th August Trinity
Matthew 6; 19-34
   
  “Do not save up your treasures on the earth, where moths and rust eat away at them and thieves tunnel in and steal. Save up your treasures in heaven, where no moth and no rust consumes and thieves do not tunnel in and steal. Because where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.

“The lamp of the body is the eye. So if your eye is wholesome, your whole body is lighted; whereas if your eye is bad, your whole body is in darkness. So if the light inside you is dark…what great darkness!

“No one can serve two masters: either he will hate one and love the other, or he will  put up with one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and greed’s demon of riches [mammon].

“That is why I tell you, do not trouble your heart about what you will eat and
drink or with what you will clothe your body. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothing? Look at the birds in the sky: they do not plant, do not harvest, and do not fill barns, and your heavenly Father still feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? Can any of you, by being vastly concerned, add one moment to the span of your life?

And why do you worry about clothing? Study how the lilies of the field grow: they do not work, and they do not spin cloth. But I am telling you that not even Solomon in all his glory was ever arrayed as one of these. If that is how God clothes the wild grass of the field, here today and thrown into the furnace tomorrow, will He not do much more for you, o small in faith?

“So do not worry, saying, ‘What will we drink? What will we wear?’ It is the nations who ask for all these things, and indeed, your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. Ask first for God’s kingdom and its harmonious order, and these other things will be delivered to you as well.

So do not worry about tomorrow, because tomorrow can worry about itself. Today’s trouble is enough for today.


9th August Trinity
September 18, 2011
Matthew 6: 19-34

Here in the Northern Hemisphere, we are in the time of diminishing light. The days are shortening; the dark is rising. And what can follow in our souls, unconsciously, is the rising of a subtle level of anxiety.

Once again the gospel reading addresses our human tendency to worry, our fear of insufficiency. Christ encourages us not to diminish our focus, the range of our attention, through concentrating only on food and drink, clothes and riches. Rather we are to pay some attention to our own powers of perception. ‘If your eye is wholesome, your whole body will be filled with light’, He says. That is, if our way of seeing, our way of picturing the world is wholesome, then our body and our way of working in the world will be filled with light, radiant with love. What does a wholesome way of seeing the world consist of?

It consists of looking at what has already happened through the lens of gratitude. Gratitude expands and enlightens our vision. It widens the angle of what we see.

Wholesomeness also consists of imaging the future through the lens of trust; trust in God’s harmonious ordering of events, trust in the beneficence of His guidance. Correcting our vision with lenses of gratitude and trust lets the light into our bodies so that the light in us can radiate out into the world.
In the words of Anne Sexton:
 
….So while I think of it,
let me paint a thank-you on my palm
for this God, this laughter of the morning,
lest it go unspoken.

The Joy that isn't shared, I've heard,





[1] Anne Sexton, in The Awful Rowing Toward God